Crying Alone...

22-10-2009 (晴天的夜晚) 10.31pm

今天，終於忍不住了...
下班回到家，就獨自一個人在房間里哭...
我本來就一個人吧??
根本沒人要陪我...
陪我的，都是敷衍說幾句吧??
赫赫... *苦笑*

在這裡工作幾年了，朋友不多...
也許我很內向的關係吧...

在網上，文字可以掩飾我的情緒~
即使在哭泣，仍然可以打出“哈哈”...
但...
偽裝真的很累....
可是在這個社會就是必須學會偽裝...

死的念頭，越來越強烈...
我不知要怎樣...
我不想，可是我怕我一時控制不住...

我以為我改變了~
到現在...
我發現原來我沒有變...
原來我一點也不堅強......
我，到底要做些什麽???
沒人了解...

沖凉，敷面膜，聽音樂，睡覺...???
有用嗎???
hrm...
沒用的... ok??
下次別說咯...

因為當我心情不好，我是不睡覺的... Haiz.........


感覺餓了，先去泡杯杯面吃~
吃些東西...
心情會好些吧??

一個人的晚餐~
Maggi Mini Snek (Curry Flavour)

** My favourite food **
Few days din't eat~
Miss ya~ ><"

Hometown

19-10-2009 (晴天) 11.53am

Back from BENTONG at yesterday~ T.T
1st, thanks to my friend, AH LUN, fetched me back to BENTONG ya~ ^^
LOLX!! Dun forget you still own me RM1 ~ XD
( You said de, blekk~ =p )

We reached BETONG at 12am, so late @@"
Cause jalan wrong way at KL.
Waste Time~
Stupiak!!!! XD

When raeched my home, chit chat with my parents a while~
Then went out YUM CHA with my kai mui (Esther) & her darling~
Felt me like a BULB ><"

My milo kosong~
Got sugar de~ Not kosong de....
Drank until me felt like want vomit /.\


Me & Esther ^.^

Sweet Couple~ ^.^

So happy & funny talk to you guys~ Hahahax...!! Have to "remind" u, Lai Chee~ Don't bully my sis o..... If not, ngek~ ngek~ ngek~~~ XD


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+ .. 2nd day .. +

Early in the morning~ 7 something like that...
"HAU YEE"~~~ My mum call me....
Cause last night i asked her wake me up in morning & I want follow then out to breakfast~ LOLX~
But i cant wake up that moment~
Still very sleepy ya..... T.T
Din't accompany my parents for breakfast.... ><" zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

Finally!!! Wake up at 12pm~~~~ hehehee~
My mum making my favourite food -----> YEONG-TAUHU \^o^/

Finished stir the fish meat & pork


LOLX~ FINISHED!!!!
Can't wait to eat~~ ><" Hrm....... Really very delicious la!!!!
Sluuurrrppppp....!!!!

&

But, my father also had make "Lo Mei Gei"

^.^

4pm, my parents fethced me & my kai mui go to Bentong's bus station..

Bye Bye... ='(
Will miss you all much~

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On the way to KL, Me & Esther nothing to do on bus..
Then we snap some photos in the bus~ XD

Sis forever~~

We're reached KL at 6pm~
JUNG fetched me at Esther's house - Maluri
Hehehee~

Felt happy when saw my DEAR JUNG waiting at MALURI's station there~
2+ hours din't see him~
\^o^/ *hug hug* Muackxs!!!
Miss you so much o~
You lehh?? Got miss me or not?? =p

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In night, dinner with JUNG's family at RAWANG... So far....
From Puchong - Rawang ><"
8pm only reached there...

Kedai Makanan Lan Jie

Here got lot of people err.... ><"
We're wait 10 minutes only got tables~

Here very special at *1 fish per 1 people*
yummy yummy~ The taste not bad ya~

THANK YOU
for JUNG's family treat me a dinner~ ^^

Happy Breakfast

17-09-2009 (晴天) 12.38pm

Today，Jung take me go to work in this morning~
THANK YOU ya~ ^.^*

Coz I will go back my hometown (Bentong) tonight~
He said he will very miss me in this 2+ hours!!!

wahahahahha....!!!!
Funny lar euuu.... XD
I also will miss you ya~ ;-)
(*^__^*) heheee~

After me finished opened the giosk,
then we go to ASIA CAFE had our breakfast ^o^

Guava Juice ordered by ME ^.^
Orange Juice ordered by JUNG ^.^

We're ordered same BREAKFAST SET
Have 2pcs sausages, 1pcs ham, 1 egg, salad, 2pcs cucumbers & 1pcs tomato~



LOLX!!!! So little 4 me!! ><"





After finished our breakfast, then I also back to my working place x.x sienz~
Feel wanna sleep after breakfast!! ><" zzzz....

Thank you ya~
Coz accompany me had breakfast in this morning~
( Maybe is me accompany you XD )


Very long time no people accompany me breakfast le~ =(
hehehee~

Video

12-10-2009 (晴天) 11.40pm

**有些事，一轉身就是一輩子**

有些人一直沒機會見，等有機會見了，卻猶豫了，相見不如不見~
有些事一直沒機會做，等有機會了，卻不想再做了...
有些話埋藏在心中好久，沒機會說，等有機會說的時候，卻說不出口了...
有些愛一直沒機會愛，等有機會了，已經不愛了...

有些人很多機會相見的，卻總找藉口推脫，想見的時候已經沒機會了...
有些話有很多機會說的，卻想著以後再說，要說的時候，已經沒機會了...
有些事有很多機會做的，卻一天一天推遲，想做的時候卻發現沒機會了...
有些愛給了你很多機會，卻不在意沒在乎，想重視的時候已經沒機會愛了...

一轉身可能就是一世，說好永遠的，不知怎么就散了...
最後自己想來想去，竟然也搞不清，當初是什麽原因分開彼此的...
然後你忽然醒悟，感情原來是這么脆弱的...

經得起風雨，卻經不起平凡；風雨同船，天晴便各自散了...
也許只是賭氣，也許只是因為小小的事...
幻想著和好的甜蜜，或重逢時的擁抱...
那個時候會是，邊流淚邊捶打對方，還傻笑著...
該是多美的畫面...
沒想到的是，一別竟是一輩子了...

於是，各有各的生活，各自愛著別的人...
曾經相愛，現在已互不相干...
即使在同一個小小的城市，也不曾再相逢...
某一天某一刻，走在同一條街，也看不見對方...
先是感嘆，後來是無奈...

也許你很幸福，因為找到另一個適合自己的人...
也許你不幸福，因為可能你這一生，就只有那個人真正用心在你身上...
很久很久，沒有對方的消息，也不再想起這個人，也是不想再想起這些...

學會珍惜身邊的每一個人，或許那都會成為記憶的美好...

一個人...

12-10-2009 (晴天) 10.40pm

不知不覺，自己一個人生活了4個多月...“精彩”的生活已過了...

最近不知怎么的，每當一回到家自己一個人面對冷清清的房子，感覺很寂寞..Sad Sad的...

每次回到家，我都會就馬上打開我的laptop，扭開音樂，可是那樣也消除不了那冷清清的感覺...每次都很想哭，但是都逼自己趕快睡覺，別想那么多...但是，眼淚還是不聽使喚地流下來...這幾晚都是這樣慢慢的地睡著...haiz..... ='(

開始害怕這種感覺，有多久沒有這種感覺了呢???hrm...真的很怕...不想再像以前那樣，再次患上那可怕的憂鬱症...可是很難控制~~ /.\

開始不想再回來這冷清清的房子了...好想走...但能去哪裡呢???還要做那沉悶，時間又長的工作...好煩!!!!!!!!!!!不做又不行..... /.\

感覺我就快撐不住了...我好想走啦............... x.x